THE BAD MAN? NO ONE IS BAD. IM NOT BAD. IM FUCKING NOT?????? GET THAT SHIT OUT OF YOUR HEAD RIGHT NOW.

I don't have to prove a fucking thing. fuck that shit. just stop the shit okay. i don't have to prove myself to you or to anybody. and even if i did do something fuckable. it's because that person is a piece of shit.

Because if you hadn't heard. all girls who aren't sluts get abused by men. because apparently that's the only way they can enjoy themselves. it's the same story with me. it's also sad that i have to do this because i don't want to but i have to. it makes sense. it's not about the past. it's about the present.

I can't sleep. i didn't sleep last night. i was thinking about shit. not the present. the past. i am fucking sad. so sad. so sad. it doesn't matter anymore because i can't change anything.

Why are you guys calling me bad?? why is that happening.??? i never done anything bad but apparently you think so but you know i could give a fuck. fuck your goddamn perception of my life. i don't want it. you can't keep me from loving myself. i never wanted your shit anyway. nobody should fucking talk about other people like that. what makes you so special?? no one's perfect. and if you think you are. you're dead wrong. even if you are. you aren't. stop that shit. i never wanted to hurt you. i am fucking sorry if i did. because i never fucking wanted to. i never. stop that shit right fucking now. and stop thinking like that.

I didn't ever want you to get mad. you can fucking go to hell if you don't like me. so what. you want me to be a slut. but i don't give a fuck about any of you. i don't want your shit anyway. i never did. i was trying so hard to be a good person. but apparently i'm not. i never fucking wanted that. so fuck you. you are fucking stupid. go to hell. and fuck you. and fuck yourself.